Hi Joan! I found your name in one of the commenters posts.
I know the Lord led me to your substack through C&C that day, because my Daddy died suddenly after a 2 day illness this past Tuesday night. Today is Saturday.
I remembered you had said that sleep was elusive and that is why you started the nightly gatherings and here I am at 11:45pm, lying awake in the dark, back in my childhood home. My 78 year old mother, who has been incredibly at peace through it all, is lying beside me, sleeping I think, while I am lying on my Daddy’s side of the bed writing this. My Dad’s birthday was today - he would’ve turned 83 - and as they married on his birthday, it was also their 58th year anniversary as well.
I am completely secure knowing where Daddy is. He (and Mama) gave their lives to the Lord when they were both young, and led my brother and me to know the Lord as well. My Dad never met a stranger, shared the gospel and Bibles wherever he went (he was a Gideon) and acted as a true evangelist for the Lord. I know there will be many people to meet in heaven that will be there because of my Dad sharing Christ with them. He was outgoing, fun loving and athletic, He loved life but was excited to go to heaven and he and mother talked openly about it.
But the grief is real, and the missing his presence is still surreal somehow. I’ve heard others say they keep expecting their loved one to walk through the door, and that is how it has been since I arrived on Thursday.
I really feel one of the ways the Lord was preparing me for this grief was finding your substack. I normally wouldn’t have read something like this since I use substack as an alternative news source. But there I was, reading through the timeline of Morgan’s “homecoming to heaven” and your subsequent grief.
And now here I am, knowing that the Lord knew I needed to be familiar with this spot. So thank you for writing about your experience and helping me to understand that loss of sleep is normal. I didn’t know that! It really did help me to not be stressed that I couldn’t sleep. I’ve only gotten 3 - 5 a night so far. It’s amazing how little sleep I could manage on! I hope I can sleep better in my own bed when my family and I return home after the funeral on Monday and burial Tuesday.
Rosie, thank you for sharing this. Wow! This is yet another instance of God being in every detail of our lives and I'm thrilled He is using me to help you. The scripture telling us not to be anxious about anything is true. We humans waste so much time and enjoyment of life worrying, and it is futile. He has it all worked out. Your dad sounds like an incredible person and I'm sure his welcoming party must have been ginormous! If you haven't viewed any of the NDE clips I've mentioned, they will make you happy.
Some of us seem to deal with the sleep issue while others don't, but like you, it isn't affecting me during the day at all. God bless you and safe travels after the funeral.
Hi Joan! I found your name in one of the commenters posts.
I know the Lord led me to your substack through C&C that day, because my Daddy died suddenly after a 2 day illness this past Tuesday night. Today is Saturday.
I remembered you had said that sleep was elusive and that is why you started the nightly gatherings and here I am at 11:45pm, lying awake in the dark, back in my childhood home. My 78 year old mother, who has been incredibly at peace through it all, is lying beside me, sleeping I think, while I am lying on my Daddy’s side of the bed writing this. My Dad’s birthday was today - he would’ve turned 83 - and as they married on his birthday, it was also their 58th year anniversary as well.
I am completely secure knowing where Daddy is. He (and Mama) gave their lives to the Lord when they were both young, and led my brother and me to know the Lord as well. My Dad never met a stranger, shared the gospel and Bibles wherever he went (he was a Gideon) and acted as a true evangelist for the Lord. I know there will be many people to meet in heaven that will be there because of my Dad sharing Christ with them. He was outgoing, fun loving and athletic, He loved life but was excited to go to heaven and he and mother talked openly about it.
But the grief is real, and the missing his presence is still surreal somehow. I’ve heard others say they keep expecting their loved one to walk through the door, and that is how it has been since I arrived on Thursday.
I really feel one of the ways the Lord was preparing me for this grief was finding your substack. I normally wouldn’t have read something like this since I use substack as an alternative news source. But there I was, reading through the timeline of Morgan’s “homecoming to heaven” and your subsequent grief.
And now here I am, knowing that the Lord knew I needed to be familiar with this spot. So thank you for writing about your experience and helping me to understand that loss of sleep is normal. I didn’t know that! It really did help me to not be stressed that I couldn’t sleep. I’ve only gotten 3 - 5 a night so far. It’s amazing how little sleep I could manage on! I hope I can sleep better in my own bed when my family and I return home after the funeral on Monday and burial Tuesday.
Hope you sleep well.💗
Rosie, thank you for sharing this. Wow! This is yet another instance of God being in every detail of our lives and I'm thrilled He is using me to help you. The scripture telling us not to be anxious about anything is true. We humans waste so much time and enjoyment of life worrying, and it is futile. He has it all worked out. Your dad sounds like an incredible person and I'm sure his welcoming party must have been ginormous! If you haven't viewed any of the NDE clips I've mentioned, they will make you happy.
Some of us seem to deal with the sleep issue while others don't, but like you, it isn't affecting me during the day at all. God bless you and safe travels after the funeral.
Sorry for your loss! 💔
Praying Psalm 3:5 and 4:8 over you tonight.
Hoping for 8 tonight.