Nightly Gathering

Open Thread Post 139 - The Metaphor

Those who have lost someone very close to them often describe the ongoing grief in terms of treading water, and then a wave approaches and smacks them in their face or even threatens to pull them under.

I once wrote about the giant wave that threatened to take me under, but how God used my prayer warrior friends as well as my Role Model to keep me afloat. That post is here.

https://icantimagine.substack.com/p/sinking-but-saved

Today immediately upon waking I felt much different than yesterday. Yesterday I was treading water, but I woke up with a wave approaching. I've been asking myself all day if maybe I had her in a dream last night that I don't remember. Why WAKE UP like this?

It's been with me. I've thought a lot about her today and can't believe I don't get to see her here again. Only when I move on myself. One day at a time until that happens.

I still don't want to go to the grief support group tonight. I don't want to grieve. I want to laugh and have fun, which I'll do with my friends playing our card game at our microbrewery hangout.

I'm writing this now and will schedule it to go up around the usual time. Have you felt these waves in your grief? What do you do to ride them?

This is Open Thread so feel free to post about any topic. Writing works as therapy for many people.

“When a woman gives birth, she has a hard time, there’s no getting around it. But when the baby is born, there is joy in the birth. This new life in the world wipes out memory of the pain. The sadness you have right now is similar to that pain, but the coming joy is also similar. When I see you again, you’ll be full of joy, and it will be a joy no one can rob from you. You’ll no longer be so full of questions.

John 16:21‭-‬23a MSG