I'm just tired. I've been sleeping well, even without any benedryl, so it isn't lack of sleep. But I'm tired, and so tired I didn't even take the dog for her walk today. I had a super crazy thought mid-afternoon when I laid on the couch and thought about taking a nap. I would have, too, except the wind kicked up right then as a quick storm cell passed through. I scurried outside to take down the wind chimes that were going a little crazy.
The fatigue reminded me of 1997 when I had my son with me in a Northern California hotel room as we came to visit hubby who was working long term out of town. I just wanted to go to sleep for a few minutes on that available bed! (I don't think I did, but I don't remember now) Remember who was born in 1998? So my crazy thought was actually thinking , “No, no way,” then remembering Sarah in the Bible being of advanced age. It was just a crazy thought and in no way should be possible; it would be a miracle of Biblical proportions, but I'm just trying to describe the fatigue.
So let’s not allow ourselves to get fatigued doing good. At the right time we will harvest a good crop if we don’t give up, or quit. Right now, therefore, every time we get the chance, let us work for the benefit of all, starting with the people closest to us in the community of faith.
Galatians 6:9-10 MSG
I have often thought that mental pain can be worse than physical pain, and nobody can see it or measure it. I pray for you that you will get over this pain. You are needed here and have much purpose to keep you going. She will always be with you like your bird sightings. Just a different way now.
I’ve decided to turn off all the noise. The fatigue you feel is real. It happens to me everyday around 5:00. Praying for you.