I fell asleep early last night, and felt so badly that you had a troubled heart. The Lord loves you and has redeemed you, and you are giving Him so much glory even in your deepest anguish. Please don’t allow the devil to convince you of anything otherwise. God loves you with an everlasting love, and that any mistake or sin is corrected or forgiven by the Lord and redeemed for his glory and our good. Praying that you feel the immense love and presence of the Lord today and everyday.
Thank you Bellatrix. At least I slept okay...If it's not one thing it's another and will always be like that for us on earth. I kind of hate that I have probably another 25 or 30 years to go based on my genetics. Reading about the other realm makes you realize how bad it is here, even though most of the time we feel it's pretty good.
You’re right, and it is being realistic to acknowledge that things are bad here because we live in such a fallen world. But I also believe that the Lord has wonderful plans for you, just think of the joy you will have when you have grandchildren by your son, and maybe even a beautiful granddaughter who reminds you very much of Morgan. Not to mention the work that you are doing right now for the Lord in bringing Him glory through your amazingly faithful and accepting reaction to your suffering. Also you tremendously helping other people going through what you are going through. (Just like the scriptures in Corinthians about comforting others with the comfort God gives you). Thank you for being such a faithful servant, and such a powerful witness for Christ! . But all that being said, I know your pain is so deep, and that, although you are receiving comfort, it will be something that probably never goes away completely, that is until you are reunited with Morgan in heaven. In the meantime, I pray God carries you and your family every step of the way.
Thank you for all of this encouragement. I pray my son can meet Ms. Right soon and not wait too long to get a family going. I hadn't even thought of a grandbaby looking like Mo, but that would be wonderful.
A mystery gift showed up at my door on Valentine's Day. A beautiful book of Birds that I had ordered a year ago and was obviously sent to the wrong address. That it should find its way to me on Valentine's Day was so fitting and such a sign from the Universe. The first picture I turned to was an Owl, symbol of passage. The 2nd picture I flipped to was a pair of Pink Flamingos (always MY bird!) forming a heart with their necks. It has been almost 2 years since Troy decided to stop his own heart from beating. A heart I cherished. A life I adored. Valentine's Day 2021 was my last message from him. A Happy Valentine's Day text followed by a pic of beautiful gemstones from a mine in Brazil. Things were opening back up in the US and I just KNEW it was going to be "our summer". As soon as my man gets back home...
I was dreaming of that whole "fun summer of romance" when I got the call.
I am not sure we ever get it right, my friend. We can only keep going forward and taking a step for them and for us as we walk ahead.
Oh Nancy. Your story makes me cry. It's wonderful that book showed up on Valentine's day. It sounds like he adored you and would have loved to give you some of those gemstones. I think one of the hardest parts of this grief is dreaming of the expectations of what was supposed to be or could have been if they had not passed. I know we don't ever get it all right, but I would hope I would learn from past mistakes and do better, and sometimes I don't and it causes problems. I'm sure I'll get back to my sunnier disposition before long, I always do, but tonight's post might be like last nights.
I’m not sure why you are feeling that way but I know you are being too hard on yourself. I admire you so very much, you have shown so much strength even as your heart breaks in pieces. You have always been one of the most giving person I know and the effort you put into this blog to help others by sharing your grief journey is a testament of that. God is working through you my friend 💕❤️
I fell asleep early last night, and felt so badly that you had a troubled heart. The Lord loves you and has redeemed you, and you are giving Him so much glory even in your deepest anguish. Please don’t allow the devil to convince you of anything otherwise. God loves you with an everlasting love, and that any mistake or sin is corrected or forgiven by the Lord and redeemed for his glory and our good. Praying that you feel the immense love and presence of the Lord today and everyday.
Thank you Bellatrix. At least I slept okay...If it's not one thing it's another and will always be like that for us on earth. I kind of hate that I have probably another 25 or 30 years to go based on my genetics. Reading about the other realm makes you realize how bad it is here, even though most of the time we feel it's pretty good.
You’re right, and it is being realistic to acknowledge that things are bad here because we live in such a fallen world. But I also believe that the Lord has wonderful plans for you, just think of the joy you will have when you have grandchildren by your son, and maybe even a beautiful granddaughter who reminds you very much of Morgan. Not to mention the work that you are doing right now for the Lord in bringing Him glory through your amazingly faithful and accepting reaction to your suffering. Also you tremendously helping other people going through what you are going through. (Just like the scriptures in Corinthians about comforting others with the comfort God gives you). Thank you for being such a faithful servant, and such a powerful witness for Christ! . But all that being said, I know your pain is so deep, and that, although you are receiving comfort, it will be something that probably never goes away completely, that is until you are reunited with Morgan in heaven. In the meantime, I pray God carries you and your family every step of the way.
Thank you for all of this encouragement. I pray my son can meet Ms. Right soon and not wait too long to get a family going. I hadn't even thought of a grandbaby looking like Mo, but that would be wonderful.
A mystery gift showed up at my door on Valentine's Day. A beautiful book of Birds that I had ordered a year ago and was obviously sent to the wrong address. That it should find its way to me on Valentine's Day was so fitting and such a sign from the Universe. The first picture I turned to was an Owl, symbol of passage. The 2nd picture I flipped to was a pair of Pink Flamingos (always MY bird!) forming a heart with their necks. It has been almost 2 years since Troy decided to stop his own heart from beating. A heart I cherished. A life I adored. Valentine's Day 2021 was my last message from him. A Happy Valentine's Day text followed by a pic of beautiful gemstones from a mine in Brazil. Things were opening back up in the US and I just KNEW it was going to be "our summer". As soon as my man gets back home...
I was dreaming of that whole "fun summer of romance" when I got the call.
I am not sure we ever get it right, my friend. We can only keep going forward and taking a step for them and for us as we walk ahead.
Oh Nancy. Your story makes me cry. It's wonderful that book showed up on Valentine's day. It sounds like he adored you and would have loved to give you some of those gemstones. I think one of the hardest parts of this grief is dreaming of the expectations of what was supposed to be or could have been if they had not passed. I know we don't ever get it all right, but I would hope I would learn from past mistakes and do better, and sometimes I don't and it causes problems. I'm sure I'll get back to my sunnier disposition before long, I always do, but tonight's post might be like last nights.
I’m not sure why you are feeling that way but I know you are being too hard on yourself. I admire you so very much, you have shown so much strength even as your heart breaks in pieces. You have always been one of the most giving person I know and the effort you put into this blog to help others by sharing your grief journey is a testament of that. God is working through you my friend 💕❤️
Thanks Jill. You've always been there for me. I love you.