Will it Happen?

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Within days of Morgan passing into the next realm, one of her high school beach coaches said they would put on a Memorial beach volleyball tournament and start a scholarship in her name. By the time of her Celebration of Life in April 2023, the money was being collected and stored. It isn't currently a foundation yet, trying to keep taxes at a minimum, but someday if it grows large enough, it will be.

There has been very little communication about getting the tournament going. Several months ago I was told “late spring.” On May 1st, hubby and I decided it was time to realize their hearts are in the right place, but they don’t have the bandwidth in their schedules to accommodate that aspiration. I sent an email asking for the names and amounts, and to send me a check so I could send people their donations back.

I received an immediate reply telling me to be patient; it is underway supposedly with a June date. He gave a few details about the plans, which are big, but when asked for the date, has not answered, leaving me to believe he now has to scramble for a date.

I gave him/them an out and they didn't take it, but it feels -not fishy, but just unimportant I guess. I don't think I’ve been impatient, but if it is going to happen, I need to make plans to be there and alert others to give them time to plan to be there, too, if they’d like. Will it happen?

How pushy should I be at this point?

The past couple of weeks have kind of punctured my healing heart partly from the above, partly from songs that bring on memories that make me cry, partly from the constant waiting for justice to BEGIN taking place, partly because Mother’s Day is looming.

I can go long periods now where she’s not constantly on my mind the minute I’m not involved in something else that keeps it occupied. I am almost always feeling good, thankful for the life she had here, and thankful her current reality is blissful. My goal in life is to shine extra light - her's and mine. I want to work to make the world a better place through my relationships near and far, through the writing of this substack, and through the tween/teen book I wrote with my young friend that should be published this summer.

Morgan was going to be one of the pre-readers, and I sure miss her input. She wouldn't have held back, which is exactly what is needed. I think God’s sense of humor is wonderful. In trying to select my proofreader/editor, one with great cred and a Biblical background similar to mine, I first came across a young man named Evan, which happens to be my son’s name. After trying out a couple women who didn't fit, the next potential one was named Greg, which happens to be my hubby's name. Still trying to be diligent, the next that my gut (Holy Spirit) pointed me to was a Mr. Wright. My friend W3 helped me with the pros and cons, and today I’ll be sending my manuscript to Evan.

Have a blessed day and week, and all you mothers, hold the hugs with your kids a second longer to help make up for my missing hug!