Why Haven't I Been Writing?

Post 289

Good Question. I think I haven't been writing for a few different reasons. For starters, although not the prime reason, I have been a bit busier than usual. The change of quarter is always a busy time in my job, so there’s that. In addition, a couple weeks ago we received the phenomenal news that my son got a job offer in Nashville, just over two hours away from us! I am so thrilled that God answered that prayer the way I'd been hoping. My ever solid as a rock friend, Jeanne, went with me last Saturday to get the real pros and cons of a few apartment complexes in which he was most interested, and he chose one just about five miles from The Gulch, where he’ll be working. Hubby is flying up to Ohio tomorrow, they’ll load a UHaul which he’ll drive down on Sunday, and my son will drive his own car. I’m so excited for his new life adventure and to see him so much more often.

I think another reason I haven't been writing is because I’ve been waiting for something major to happen that I want to write about, other than my son’s move, and it still hasn't. I am not upset by the delay because I know everything is happening as it should. The old me would have had a decent amount of anxiety, but I just tell myself that I better watch out what I wish for. Although waiting is hard, what comes next is probably more difficult.

Maybe the biggest reason I haven't been writing is because I’m still perplexed about the continual “signs” I get of Mo. The more I think about it, the more I come to the understanding that it must be God allowing angels to cause so much to be paranormal or intense timing. It could be Mo if heaven is just on the other side of the Earthly veil and I’m allowed to be played with (knowing that I won't go overboard and turn to the occult), but I definitely see it as assurance that this is not all there is, and the next realm must be so cool and fun if that's the case.

Why me and not so many others? I’m not sure, but I think what I just stated is one reason, and many others do or could, they just either don't want them, don't recognize them when they’re offered, or some other reason above my pay grade.

I just don’t know - but it continues to happen. The post Seeking Answers showed the picture had flipped over that old purse, right? Well a few days after I posted Seeking Answers, I needed a stamp, which I just happen to keep in that purse. Here’s the picture again.

At the bottom, inside the purse, is a tiny ceramic antique vase that was in front of the picture on that cabinet to the right. It landed in the purse facing out like it is. IMPOSSIBLE.

It was as if I was being assured the pictures aren't just blowing over like I’m sure most of you think. Explain that then.

A couple people have suggested I should put a camera up in the room, but I feel sure it wouldn't capture anything. The point is to be caught off guard by noticing, not to watch something mysterious take place. I did place everything back, and this time I decided I would make the edge of the pictures be flush with the edge of the cabinet. This picture was taken June 27th and there hasn’t been any movement whatsoever.

On the 4th of July, the blanket on my couch which tented itself a few times this year, tented itself again after I’d already been laying on it. I left to get groceries, and when I came back it was tented? No way! Possible possible possible the dog somehow does this, but she’s only allowed on there when I’m on there, too, and I’ve never seen her go on the couch by herself. It’s against the couch, not pulled away as if she’d got caught in it somehow.

And the final thing that recently happened is the one thing that did happen last year. In the evening of July 2nd we were sitting there and I realized I was warm so I turned on the ceiling fan. The sweet smell of a cake baking wafted down. Hubby literally said the exact same words as last year. “Are you baking something?”

Hubby does not believe any of this is paranormal, signs of Mo, or what have you, but he also can't explain any of it. He puts it away in a compartment to deal with some other time I think.

I have come a long way on this grief journey in the last 18+ months. Graces of Gurley, where I volunteer, is having a garage sale on July 27th. I was able to gather up more of Mo’s things that have been in storage and organize and deliver them without even one tear shed. Part of that is because most of it was newly acquired things she had recently purchased, so there technically wasn't much sentimental value. It does feel good to have it done.

I guess that's it y’all! Feel free to message me anytime. Go live a joy-filled life and don’t sweat the small stuff (and it’s almost all small.)