Nightly Gathering

Open Thread Post 52

Hello! There are still only dozens of us instead of hundreds or even thousands that will come here and get support some day - God willing. Thank you all for showing up and for encouraging me with your kind words whether in comments here, texts, or in person. I have mentioned before that I believe this is a big reason I am stronger than I would have ever imagined I could be.

Today Rock 4 and some other ladies helped me better plan the party after the service. Did I ever mention the food we'll be having? BBQ pulled pork sandwiches, southern style green beans, you know the ones with bacon? Chips, veggie sticks, grape salad (look up that recipe, it's fantastic),we added Mac & cheese today. Desserts are bread pudding and chocolate pudding cake. All the usual drinks, both soft and beer and whatnot. I'm really glad we added the Mac and cheese. That was one of Morgan's favorite foods. I screwed it up either the last time, or second to the last time I made it for her. The butter burnt a little before I got the milk added,and then the consistency just wasn't right. We ate it, it was salvageable and tasted okay, but we were disappointed.

The thing I've thought a lot about today is something hubby's counselor told him at the appointment yesterday. As we still stop and wonder sometimes how we're managing, or how we'll manage tomorrow or the next day, he made it analogous to a person who loses a physical limb. This person will never be the same, there is a piece missing, but this person learns to adapt. Adapt to driving, adapt to dressing, adapt to chores. It's just different. We have to learn how to adapt, too. I think I'm still thrashing around a bit, kind of winging it. Having to think about and plan the Celebration of Life, flights, food, visitors, etc., it is still not “real life” yet, even though there are definitely moments or days of real life. Does what I'm saying make sense? How will I be in May?

Thank you all again. Use this as a place for support, memory sharing, questions, or whatever.