Nightly Gathering

Open Thread Post 53

Today was different. My first work meetings were 90 minutes later than usual, and with rain expected most of the day, I took my dog for a walk starting about 615 this morning to beat it. A podcast didn't really do it for me, so I ended up listening to music. A young millennial or older “gen z” girl, ran towards me near the end and didn't make eye contact, momentarily making me feel invisible, but I shook it off as the Lauren Daigle song, “You Say” came on a few seconds later revealing truth.

After a couple hours of work, Rock 5, who must have read my last couple of posts, texted me with information I didn't know existed. There is a follow up song to the last song I made the movie for, for the Celebration of Life. I listened to it and it was both devastating and healing. It's the only way I can describe how it made me feel. I cried and cried when I first heard it. I played it several more times. It hurts, but it also heals.

That left me plain drained for the next several hours. I did some work, but I also did some yard work.

I realize how blessed I am to have the job I do. It's remote, usually very flexible, I work with awesome people, and it can be challenging. Today I was grateful for all those parts.

Tonight was cards night. I get these couple hours free of overbearing thoughts of the loss of my daughter. They were a little more intrusive than usual, even tonight, but I love being with these people. I don't know where I'd be without them.

All of you who read this, please understand, you all make a difference. You may not think you do. You're just you, one of billions of people, but somehow, you & I are in the same orbit of influence, and you viewing this matters to me. You viewing this tells me that somehow what I have to say, or teach, or impart, must have a small significance to you, or you wouldn't keep opening the email, or coming back.

If I'm “lucky”, you'll take the positive and pass that on somehow. Back to the ripple effect….