Maybe I Spoke Too Soon

Post 201

Aug 02, 2023

Today I have felt, and still feel, different than yesterday. The sadness hung around after I “saw” her and talked to her at The Spot early in the morning. Maybe I'm not where I thought I was, and that's okay.

The homesick feeling was strong.

A couple days ago, I noticed a woman's Bible study would be happening tonight through the church I've started occasionally attending that is being planted here. I had asked Rock 4 if she was going, and yes she was, but the location changed to somebody's house, so we decided to meet and I'd go with her. (I have not gone to a Woman's Bible Study in many years.)

It turns out tonight was more of a social night, and I'm 99% sure if she'd told me that ahead of time I would not have gone, but I'm glad I did. I will feel more a part of this new church by knowing more people. Of course everyone was very nice and half the group were not Huntsville natives either, two just moved here in the past year.

The question in these situations naturally gets asked what brought us here, and without effort or emotion, I said our daughter played beach volleyball at UAB, and once we ventured out to check out Huntsville a couple times, we fell in love with it There was no reason to interject the fact that Mo is no longer on earth. Shortly thereafter, the way she followed up was to ask if I had “any children besides my daughter”, which also did not lend itself to correcting her natural assumption that my daughter is alive and in the area. It felt weird, but it would be completely awkward to have mentioned it.

The moon was huge rising over the distant mountain as I drove down the highway to home, but the nearer I got to my house, it sunk behind. I was so disappointed because I wanted to take a picture. Minutes after I got home, I decided to let the dog out for her last time, and the moon had risen higher and although it didn't appear as large, was still beautiful.