Living With It-Part 2

Post 296

We actually found out the bad news from the lawyer on Sept 12th. I just took a while to write about it, so I wanted to clear that up. We are over the worst of the letdown as far as that goes.

I meant to expand a little more on some of the thoughts I’ve had over the past couple of weeks with the potential lawsuit going no further, but I forgot to write about them last night.

There is nothing special about my particular pain or grief from losing my loved one at her young age. Morgan and I were really really close, however. For most of her life, she told me EVERYTHING. When she became a late teen/young adult, it actually was difficult because I felt the line was too fuzzy between being a parent and a friend. My heart always wanted to help her and give her the best advice, but at the same time, I wanted her to either figure things out herself or rely more on friends.

It turns out it was pretty common for many mother-daughter relationships during those years according to some friends.

But, even though she was killed by lackadaisical hospital staff and ridiculous nonsensical protocols, she is one of millions who have died much sooner than should be expected, not only through horrible hospital policies (even murderous in some cases!), but horrible US governance, letting illicit drugs flow through our borders non-stop, causing pain and death in hundreds of thousands of families.

Then there were the covid jab mandates and nonstop propaganda regarding the shots and boosters. Many many people have gone to an early grave suddenly and unexpectedly. An NYU professor has weekly put out a substack since 2021 of the athletes, students, entertainers, nurses and doctors, police, firefighters, executives, and your everyday person, including babies, who died suddenly and unexpectedly. Look up Mark Crispin Miller.

Then there are the many worldwide governments finding reasons for continuous wars, sending so many people to early graves. Wars that are mostly about helping the rich get richer, and nothing more. What did I say yesterday? Money is God to America in the 21st Century? Indeed - to most of the politically powerful worldwide, there is no doubt they worship money and can’t have enough.

I am a mom, like MILLIONS of other moms, who have had to bury our children, yet somehow keep living each day ourselves. I’m not special.

It’s a crappy world. BUT, THANK GOD, He stands by ready to help those who believe and ask. You all who continue to read have been used as such a blessing for me. Some of you insinuate you have been helped by my posting in some way, too. I love that The Creator of all things used me to help you, not even necessarily with grief, but maybe just more openness to a worldview you hadn't considered for much of your life.

I wanted to give a kitty update, too. By kitty, I mean my senior cat, Milo. He barely eats and has lost a lot of weight, but other than his body shrinking, his personality is still 100% normal. He visits, purrs, walks around from time to time, looks out the window. I don't know how he is hanging on so well with what little he eats. I've taken to giving him real cooked fish! This can’t go on forever, but he’s a great cat. I’m glad it isn't suddenly and unexpectedly with him.

Today, I got a text from a young lady who was great friends with Mo during her junior and senior year of college. She spoke at the Celebration of Life. It was great texting with her, being reminded again that Mo isn't completely forgotten. I also was sent a jpg of the Memorial Plaque that will go on the sponsored cat cages in Butler County, Ohio. These two occurrences brought on the emotions and tears, but they sure don't last as long as they used to.

This will likely be it for another week or two. Enjoy your friends and family. Let them know how much they mean to you!