My heart is still heavy, especially since it's Friday. I really would like to get back to where I was a couple weeks ago.
Yesterday I was told of another couple who's only son who was about Mo's age, passed on a few months before she did. The person telling me described how both parents have completely fallen apart, raging anger, medicated, no ability to accept any part of their loss. I know I'd be there as well if it wasn't for all of the prayers and support, but especially the faith that I was born into and had the opportunity and desire to develop over my lifetime. Thank you, Lord.
My heart breaks for them because I know how awful they feel, but they are unable to come out of the “vice on the heart.” For you prayer warriors, maybe think about saying one for them.
Today's walk to The Spot was 6:15 am early and 71 degrees. With heat index, we were nearly 100 today. I listened to Jordan Peterson talking with Eric Metaxis but I am not done yet. I may link to it then. I was fortunate to see a cardinal high up on a telephone wire. I called out, “Hey! Good morning!” to which it promptly flew to a tree further away.
As for the branch with dead leaves, two glances only by my sweet dog. She has a solid answer to her questions from a few days ago.
At the actual SPOT, tears are shed almost every time, and they were today. I tell her that I know whatever she'll be doing today will be amazing and I'm happy for her. Two weeks ago, that worked so well to make me feel great, but lately it isn't having much affect.
I know I'm a downer tonight but tomorrow is a new day. I'm looking very forward to meeting with the new friend I've been meeting with bi-weekly since the While We're Waiting retreat in early May. We've been doing breakfasts and it just helps us both to meet one on one like this. Her daughter died only six weeks before mine, so we are experiencing this “year of all the firsts” together now.
Humble yourselves [with an attitude of repentance and insignificance] in the presence of the Lord, and He will exalt you [He will lift you up, He will give you purpose].
James 4:10 AMP
I’m so glad you have a friend that is going through the same emotions you are . I wish I could be that friend but she is in your life and you in hers to comfort one another in ways no one else can. Joan you are one of the strongest people I know even when you aren’t feeling strong❤️
Praying for you friend , that the Lord will renew your strength as you wait on Him and come to Him to find rest each day for your soul. Prayed for your friend and other couple you mentioned - hope and healing for their hearts. You are loved!! 🙏❤️😘